As the kindness cracks
And the world’s all torn
We slit the throat of the gentle, soft and warm
And I don’t feel better and I don’t feel light
I feel I’m slipping back inside the unwell and unright
And I feel so bad
And I feel so cruel
I wish that I could hold you and tell you everything you do
Breathes life to this mess
Into this broken chest
I see you reading Rilke in your homemade dress
And I kind of wanna love you
And I kind of wanna know you
And I hate myself for knowing that I kinda wanna own you
I’ve been so unwell
Unhinged and unkind
I think myself straight to Hell
And I drink until I’m blind
But I do my best
For you I’ve done my worst
What vile brew will try and soothe this hardened hollow thirst
And I feel you all alone
Feel the water that you swim in
Feel you falling deep in love with some other dark haired woman
And you are so far
So far from Berlin
I wonder what you’d think about the ugly shape that I’m in
And you will be a mother
And you will be a dreamer
And when you leave they all would say
Yeah you really shoulda seen her
Yeah I thought that I would die
But I wish I could go back
When you held me as I had a sidewalk panic attack
I spewed out all my sick
Threw it straight at you
Spitting out my sorrow like some kind of poison glue
Now all I wanna do
Is undo this thread
Tell how beautiful you looked when you shaved your head
Once you were my lover
Then you were my friend
Now you are the only thing that time cannot bend
I love you and I love you and I love you all time
You taught me how to bleed out and how to be kind
I know I can go on and on about how hard things can be
And perhaps it would be easier if you were here with me
But that is not the way things go
No not the way they swing
I sing your ghost into my song
And rub it on the sting
What a pity that I discovered this Berlin-based band 3 years after their dismissal. Hats off to Lute FP who pointed at this, their swan-song.
Sometimes this reminds me of a rawer version of Andrea Schroeder, elsewhere of PJ Harvey's earlier stuff, where you could never predict the next emotional/musical outburst.
I'm excited to learn that one half of this project was the same Lucy Kruger I'm going to see (with the Lost Boys) on next year's OBS in the Glitterhouse garden! Carsten Pieper
An almost anti-blues/anti-rock style that masters classic sounds while mocking the industry’s perceived seriousness. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 27, 2018
British folk musician Tom Nash built these delicate and moving songs around a broken harmonium, allowing its limitations to open up worlds. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 12, 2021